Luke 7:6-7

"I deserve better!" That was Phil's conclusion. He looked at his life and he couldn't understand why things didn't work out according to his plan. After twenty years of faithful work, his company terminated him without a severance package. After twenty-five years of marriage, his wife left him claiming she needed more space. After years of carefully managing his investments, his portfolio became worthless. Phil didn't have any answers. Nor did he have any strong emotions. He was empty. The only conclusion he could make was, "I deserve better."

At times, I can identify with Phil. When I consider my life there are aspects I like. There are also others not to my liking. This can lead me to the same conclusion as Phil: "I deserve better."

Although this feeling may seem justifiable, I need to be on my guard. Satan watches for opportunities like this to capture my feelings. He encourages me to voice my displeasure with the Lord and cling to my lack of contentment. His goal is to create animosity, and through that animosity, drive me away from the Lord.

This is when I need to remember the centurion, and especially his attitude brought about by faith. It was this complete trust in the Lord that led him to the conclusion, "I am unworthy."

When I recall what my Savior has done for me, I am drawn to the same conclusion. I am unworthy of the loving sacrifice Jesus provided to take away my sin. I am unworthy of the faithful and devoted care for my every need. I am unworthy to be adopted into his family making me an heir of heaven.  

Certainly, I may be tempted to think I deserve more or better. This is especially true when I compare myself to others who I feel are not as worthy as I am. In reality, I can only confess that Jesus has been more than merciful to me, and in that mercy, he has given me more than I could ever deserve. It is this acceptance of me in my unworthiness that leads me to thank, praise, love, and trust my Savior.